Friday, April 23, 2004

The feelings have stumbled out of that box that you have buried deep in your heart. It is not the easiest thing to do to get them under control but here they are bouncing around going from this place to that place making your life a confusing mess.

How did they get out into wide, wide open? What was the key that freed them from their confines?

The only key available: Hope.

They say that hope springs eternal ... what they should say is that hope springs the heart aflutter. When you love someone and they give you that little bit of something that means a future or the fact that your dreams will finally come through, you feel as if you could walk on air.

Hope along with faith can move mountains ... which is a good thing. Unfortunately, the bad thing is that hope can also cause you to feel like tearing your own heart out when things end up going the opposite way. It's like loading a bullet wrong in a gun. The result will get you more than you bargained with hurt and pain the beneficiaries.

However, there are some of us that feel that hope for something that is hopeless ... faith for something that we should no longer believe in.

It's all logical. Using logic, you could always see the signs ... and believe what the facts are.

Unfortunately, the heart is not a computer that you can feed raw data and expect to get an answer to a number of life's probing questions. No, any information the brain processes is going to simply be transformed by the emotions of the heart into something that trumps anything logic can put in perspective.

Logic will tell you to leave that person because of their flaws ... the heart will tell you that love is blind.

Logic will tell you protect yourself from harm ... the heart will tell you that you can't love without risk.

Logic will tell you what's wrong with a person ... the heart will always tell you what's right with them.

Therefore, what does this all mean ... what does it say for some of us who still believe in the “happy ending” or the fact that “love concurs all.” It means that no matter what they say to hurt you, no matter what they do that causes you pain you still look for that special moment. That moment that tells you that the emotions that are making you and emotional basket case are for real and what you want is worth fighting for.

Which leads to Hope.

Which strengthens faith.

Which fuels love.

Which makes all things possible.

So I guess I'm still that fool for love ... as long as faith burns in my soul and hope shines in my heart. Because quite frankly I'm too stupid to believe otherwise and too dumb not to know how to correctly translate what Logic means and what my heart does as well.

My momma always told me that, "You can follow your heart but you are going to have to use your head.”

Of course, I always countered with, “You can’t place limits on love.”

Nevertheless, being the smarter woman she quickly told me, “And love left unchecked hurts all.”

So back in the box go the feelings because you cannot have them running around. You lock them down, throw away the key and hope and pray that the one that love/hurts you never finds them.

But they always find that way … Hope is a key with many copies and can open many locks.
So you deal, and deal, and deal with the problem in the hopes that it will turn out alright and everyone wins. That of course is what we all pray ... Until the next time.

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